REVISITED (6 STEPS IN)
Uneducated unjust and poor,
laughing easily.
I am nothing but song
just a bunch of cells
-I don’t think I’m as good as I think I am
-Nobody does
-Up yours
-No I mean nobody is as good as they think they are. That’s how it works
-What I mean is I’m just hanging on
-How’s the view? There’s no exception in that. Everybody’s fully stretched and looking down
-Do you think other people have wished for death?
-Most reasonable people would have at some point in their life
-It’s just that I used to have so much good luck I thought I was God
-That’s not so special either. A lot of people will feel that way
-What about the guy who invented the nuclear bomb?
-What about him?
-Did he ever think he was God?
-What do you think?
-All right, why did he think he was God?
-No, that was a question. I don’t think he did. I think he figured out that he wasn’t God so he created his own God power
-… … (pause for consideration) I just meant that I think I’m better than I actually am
-Go fish
-Pardon?
-You didn’t get it, go again
-Okay… uummmm…(pause for consideration) I wish I were better than I actually am
-That’s a little too universal
-All right. Why do I feel so good when I feel so bad?
-Now you’re getting there, that’s a little closer to it. There’re no flies on you but you can see where they’ve been
-Up yours
-No I meant that you’re just like everyone else… ordinary but different. You’re just a bunch of cells.
-That’s so clinical. How come you’re so jaded?
-People like you
-That’s why I think that I’m better than I actually am
-Now you’re getting there. It’s only when you give up that you can see yourself properly
-I think I get it… It’s not that you’re clinical, it’s that you’re jaded
-Go fish
-So it’s just that you think that you’re better than me?
-No I think I’m better than everyone and I just want you to understand the meaning of all of this
-What if there is no meaning?
-Yeah right, what would you do then?
-I would be the one to drop the bomb
-Go fish
-Up yours
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-Uumm; I wish I was as good as I feel inside
–… and?
-….?
-????
-You still haven’t got it
-Then I can’t say anything since I’m never going to get it
-I think you’re just beginning to
-I’ll say it again but differently; I will drop the bomb. Up yours
Andrew Stuart Buchanan