1. THE AUDIENCE IS RIGHT/WRITE
2. THIS MEANS NOTHING’S REAL
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I told her she could leave. She stood up. But you paid for the hour, she said. That’s all right, I replied, the rest is on me. I watched her bend over to grab her bag. She had a nice bum but no tits so I couldn’t really get it up. She handed me my money back and smiled. Don’t give me my money back because you feel sorry for me, I said. I don’t feel sorry for you, she replied, I would like to come back and see you when I’ve finished tonight. She stood there and smiled and I felt sorry for her. I handed the money towards her. She took it and folded it into squares then bent over and pulled her pants up. I’m sorry, I said, but I’m busy tonight. She took the money in a fist turned and threw it at me. It hit me in the forehead and landed on my lap. Fuck you, she said as she turned and flung the door open. She leapt out of it with half her bum still showing and slammed it loudly behind her
I felt it in the head. The wave of vibrations in the room reminded me that I was alive and it had actually happened. (((((((( ) Having only just realised what blogging is I sighed as I started writing this. I thought it was a chance for artists to share ideas. It has nothing to do with that. It is a free chance for everyone sitting in front of the computer to become a critic. They sit waiting for their chance to be heard sharpening their knives. It was invented for them. All of the artists are covered in scars and now live in a tent behind the bus shelter on Bondi rd. The knives are too sharp. An artist creates within their mind so don’t handle criticism well. When the criticism is not constructive it leaves a jagged scar
I lost a friend yesterday. It was only an online friend so I don’t really mind. They were telling me off about what I write/right. Me myself, if I don’t like what I am reading I stop reading it. I pass no judgement. They have passed through fire and come out the other side. If they had told me off about the way I write/right I wouldn’t have cared, being criticised for content only makes me realise it is about them and is no longer about the story. If I don’t like what I am reading I stop reading it. They knew that they were right/write when they told me, you can’t generalise women! Not only can I but I do. These are just words on a page. The person who told me off was acting self-righteous. The same person once asked me if I could get them some powder. I said no. They wanted to escape reality. I escape with the pen
The world used to be divided into the haves and the have-nots. In no time at all it has divided into the righteous and the wicked. I always smile when I see yuppie couples standing at protests looking angry at the world. The only real anger that they posses comes from the ability to judge other people. Another friend once told me that they could never write/right something that they didn’t believe. The friend is also a lefty. I don’t know how these people were raised. I know how I was raised. I was raised laughing. John Cleese, Ronnie Barker and Stan Freberg raised me sarcastically. I was born condescending and arrogant in the thought that what I feel and think is right/write. With a pen in my hand I can escape reality with words sdrow. The bounds are trapped but the mind is still free. I am within a body while my mind is elsewhere. How dare somebody try to tell me that what I write/right isn’t right/write
I was told off for saying that I knew a woman was a lesbian just by looking at her. I was told that I couldn’t say that. Why not? I could tell she was a lesbian just by looking at her. I was not being anything but perceptive by saying this. I have gay and lesbian friends who are not offended by what I write/right. One person showed me on their phone that my number was saved Andy Wheelchair. As people we see everybody and instantly judge them. I am the most obvious for a judging. It is only the bleeding hearts that take offence. I think that they actually wait to be offended. Their indignation fuels them. My only crime is bad taste
It gets exhausting talking to an alcoholic. If you ever have trouble getting to sleep at night look up your local phonebook and find the nearest AA meeting. After listening to all of the stories you will sleep like a lamb. It is the same as a blog. We all clutch at eternity hoping that the voice will be heard. Everybody is talking but nobody is listening. Being friends with somebody like that was exhausting. It hurts the throat trying to shout with somebody on a pedestal. The only people who are offended are waiting to be offended. The more you talk about writing the less it means. So therefore, all of
this actually means nothing
3 THE DOORBELL RANG
it was her again. I opened the door
Andrew Stuart Buchanan Buchanan